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relieved, coz he decided not to hate me
at least i don't loose contact w/ him
feel awkward
since he isn't right there anymore
something missing....

thx 2 my friends
who always b my side
i must learn to walk again
trying for get used to it
find out my own way

i'm in the middle of no where
with no sign board.

an end.

[14 May-historic month]

huney,
this is the hardest moment in my life.
it's time to say goodbye.
though, if i can-i won't choose this path
but, i think this is the best way for us.

i'm wondering...
how r u
where r u now
what r u thinking
what r u doing
what's in ur mind

but so sad
that i can't beside u again
i can't see your smile...
i can't light up ur life
even look at u from a far
coz u don't let me

so painful,
that i hurt u badly
i can't reach u now
i can't make you happy
i let u down

your shadow
had haunted me everywhere,
but then..,
it's just only an empty seat.
i'll learn to accept it
it's a matter of time
and a matter of choice

thanks God
for met us
for all fights between us
for love, tears and laughs
for every precious thing that You gave
and let us struggle and grew together

thank you, huney
for every great moments we've shared
for your understanding
for shared your dreams with me
for all things we've been through
for your hugs & kisses
for your prays

u encourage & comfort me
and teach me lots of things
to open my heart
and accept me what i am

first step
will be very difficult
for both of us.
let's stand up and move on
close a chapter
and start a new one

i belive He will meet us
with the right person
in the right place, at a right time
i wish all the best for you
and always keep u in my heart.

me